Tuesday, May 31, 2005

domestic violence

I Got Flowers Today

We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said, because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today. It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day. Last night he threw me into a wall and started to choke me. It seemed like a nightmare, I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry cause he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today, and it wasn't mother's day or any other special day. Last night, he beat me up again, it was much worse than all the other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my kids? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave.

But I know he must be sorry because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today. Today was a very special day. It was the day of my funeral! Last night, he finally killed me. He beat me to death.

If only I had gathered enough courage to leave him, I would not have gotten flowers today.......

I was sent this e-mail recently and its very powerful.

Its a reminder there are many living in this situation everyday. It can stop. If you are one of them as I was please call a shelter or some other trusted professional such as a clergy member or your physician.

If you find the courage to take that step help IS available.
Do not depend on family or friends; you have to do this for yourself.

To those living in this circumstance or if you know someone who is remeber the most
dangerous time is when you decide to leave. However, don't let the fear stop you from making tht decision. This can be the day your life turns around.

I know. I've lived it.

2 comments:

rizlablue said...

That brought tears to my eyes, Maggie. Thank God I've neveer been in a physically violent relationship. I left when the verbal abuse got too bad and was affecting my kids. take care

Goldie said...

Just wanted to say how moved I was by your story Maggie. I too was physically and emotionally abused by two ex husbands but thankfully got out in time! God bless you.